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This has been a long fucking week, full of all kinds of horrible bullshit happening at two removes (seriously, there was entirely too much hospitalization (and worse) of people that friends of mine care about, and a brush with mortality in my own extended family).

Everything that follows is pretty fucking unumportant relative to the above, but, shit.

SOTU: I thought it was a decent speech, and the left-wing criticism of it for being too high-minded in terms of grandiose plans and not fuck-you enough when it comes to fixing what's broken more or less sums up my opinion. While not as hideously fucking dire as things have been, and there are beginning to be signs that cautious optimism may not be unwarranted, shit's still pretty well and fucked up right now.

Having to deal with the obstructionists now running the HoR is going to either result in absofuckinglutely nothing getting done, or (less likely, but what the fuck, why not pretend we live in a better world than we actually do?) force the GOP to actually present actual solutions to problems that don't completely suck donkey balls, and then make them suck less enough to get through the rest of the legislative process.

Body & Exercise: Monday's session was lovely, Wednesday's run was surprisingly good, but other than that, I have been a weak-feeling, shoulder-tweaked sack of shit this week. I've been weak, tired, and slept like ass. I've eaten a ridiculous number of salads and baked chicken breasts. I'm craving something, but have no idea what the hell it is.

Work: The day-to-day stuff is actually rocking pretty hard; this month's day job volume is up 10% over last year's cumulative average, and 30-35% over the same period in 2010... and it feels like it hasn't been overwhelmingly busy. Part of that's acclimation, and part of it is the other guys on my team stepping up.

I got bad news re: a hoped-for promotion - the position I had hoped to assume was nixed in a late round of budget decisions. The prevailing opinion is that I need to make it impossible to overlook my team's (and my personal) value to the company to help justify the role being approved. I'm less capable of telling people I'm awesome than simply being awesome, so this is going to require some adaptation and mental gymnastics. I also have a small budget to play with for a specific purpose, which is also outside my usual purview, and that warrants some investigation in the ream of "I don't want to fuck this up."

Job 2 is also pretty good, and continues to evolve in interesting and rewarding ways.

Elsewhere: Just feeling generally out of sorts and cantankerous (yes, noticeably so relative to baseline). Part of it is seasonal, part of it is transitional, and part of it is I have no fucking idea what.

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[ubiquitous-a.livejournal.com]

I'm less capable of telling people I'm awesome than simply being awesome, so this is going to require some adaptation and mental gymnastics.

Rather than just talking about how you're awesome, if you view it through the prism of how your role can be awesome, and sell the value of that, it may be easier for you. Of course, it is important in the name of job security to be able to also demonstrate how you're the key to helping it succeed. :)

[etcet.livejournal.com]

It's almost of necessity a combo platter; basically putting the shine on what I do so that people beyond the terrarium in which I work grasp that it's got value.