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So, either my blatant web grazing at the office has made the point that I'm woefully underutilized, or my comments to the boss' daughter a couple weeks back on the subject of considering looking for a better-paying gig were passed along, but the twist of the week has me becomeing a half-assed web developer in addition to the world's ugliest secretary, with the intent of making me a port (as in boats) security expert, as that's where the boss sees a big surge of potential business coming from.

I think it's pretty safe to say, I never saw myself becoming some kind of waterborne threat assessment guru with an ethernet port coming out of my ass.

Now, what any of this means in terms of real-world anything (more money, the ability to wear t-shirts to work, much less any kind of future in doing anything i know the first damn thing about) is anybody's guess. The allusion to greater wages was made this morning, though I will retain my gig as "world's ugliest secretary" for the time being - there's not enough work here for one person in that job, much less for a part of me -and- a dedicated receptionist-type.

But, here I am, with a mostly-legal copy of Dreamweaver MX and an upcoming Coast Guard safety specification, and I get to have that ever-popular epiphany: "What. tha. fuck.?"

I get the feeling that I'm veering further and further away from something I have any interest making a career of, especially with this maritime stuff - it's an Old Boys' Club to be sure, and I'm neither Old nor Maritime enough to fool anyone - independent of the fact that I'm about as Southern as a Labatt's bottlecap.

"Ahhhh, stupid financial considerations!" [/Homer]

So, anyway. . . .

Comments

[etcet.livejournal.com]

thanks, sweetie. [*hug*]

i'm not sure if they're not shaping up, or if they're taking a form i'm not comfortable with, or what. yeah, it'd be very nice to make a reputation (and $70 an hour) as some kind of maritime security dude, but it's not anything i have the slightest passion for. webmastering? it's not something that gets the blood flowing substantially (and for a taste of just how dull and lame the site i'm building is, take a gander: www.havnengroup.com)

As I said to a friend privately, there's not a lot of money to be made by flaming the living shit out of some deserving boob unless you have some serious name recognition as a pundit and/or critic (and i'm nowhere near that). the pc market is saturated with folks at least as competent as i am building them (and i can't see sustaining a build rate of one a day to make ends meet for very long, either supply-side or in demand).

guess this is kinda the 'non-public face' stuff hinted at in the email (please let me know that my previous reply to our dialogue arrived one of the four times i've sent it - i'd hate to be misinterpreting mail server issues with my having done somthing to offend *sigh*)

maybe with this upcoming weekend of being a bacheloser (kim's flying home to visit family) something useful will get spit out of my brain that will act like a rudder, or something.

[netgoth.livejournal.com]

I did get the email, my phone at the house is cut off for a little bit. Chinyen being a bitch at the moment, and focusing on family and getting a new job kinda stuph. :/

I'll do what I can to reply to it sometime this weekend, hon. You didn't do anything to offend. Perhaps if I get lucky, krew and I will get his house cleaned up this weekend so I can snag his machine with a bit more regularity until I get the house phone cut back on.

**hugs** And yer not a loser. You may never make that much money, but you'll always have a certain net.goth celebrity, and good friends who care.

Besides, I don't have loser friends. **hugs** ;) Goofy, yes. Loser, no.

[etcet.livejournal.com]

aaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww............

*huggle*